Archive for October, 2010

My Un-Rock-n-Roll Life

Wednesday, October 13th, 2010

This weekend was supposed to be epic.  I was supposed to go and get tattooed at Arrows and Honor by Alana “Lawless” Lawton and generally have a blast.  Instead I was at home for most of the time, I did leave long enough to buy a vacuum.  How very non rock star of me right?  I really miss excitement in my life.  I have none; excitement that is.  I go to work at an office which is populated mostly by frumpy old women, then I go home to my dogs (both of whom are rock stars in their own right) and chill with my old man.  He’s more of a wild child then I am.  At least he goes and drinks with his buddies.  I wish I could cut loose every so often, kick life in the nuts, spit in fates face, give god a black eye ya know- be a bit of a hell raiser.  I think it’d be good for my soul.  I’m stuck in such a rut.  I have no real outlet.  I should be writing and painting more, but lately I just can’t seem to find the energy or the motivation.  I finished Prozac circles a while ago and I haven’t gotten it framed to hang up.  Fred- the mutant Jackalope I made still has broken antlers- I’m in the process of cleaning out my studio out and that’s really important to get my creative juices flowing.  I simply can’t work in a rat hole; and that’s what I’ve let my studio become.  I know I sound like I’m whining, and maybe I am.  I have a roof over my head and people who love me.  The rest is gravy right?  Getting out of debt isn’t really conducive to living the high life either.  I fucking hate debt.  The bitches at citi cards can eat shit.  (side note: it’s not their fault I racked up debt- It’s all mine, sometimes it just feels better to rage at them instead of myself) I think I’ll start jogging with Ty every day.  It will help me lose weight and it’s free which will make my old man unbelievably happy.  I want to travel and see the world.  With my 30th birthday coming up I just don’t feel like I’ve done enough or seen enough.  I’m just a greedy little rock star wannabe that can’t get enough.  Ok.  I’m done now.  End note: the soundtrack to my life- The Rolling Stones.